Hint; Young women out there, don't run away from this question. If you spend your life avoiding having to deal with this, it will only cause you more pain in all the years you spend running as opposed to spending a little time now to answer this question and then move on.
It's like avoiding doing your taxes. Just the thought of having to stop to do them seems so painful that you spend your time avoiding it. Meanwhile, the months that you are avoiding it while it hangs over your head are so painful that you're really not avoiding the headache anyway. Finally, around April 14th, you realize you have no alternative than to face up to it. You get it done and then you think "you mean I spent all that time going through all that pain avoiding it and now it's done and it really wasn't that bad after all and meanwhile I could have avoided all that pain!"
Yes, that is what it is like to finally stop and commit to finding out who you really are, and what you really want to do.
Younger women who don't quite know what I am talking about, take my word for it.
Older women who have lived this, say "Amen."